Today

Just as sort of a preface this is a purely reflective blog today so if you're looking for enlightening words you may have come to the wrong place but if you kinda wanna hear what I'm thinking about where I'm at then enjoy!

I have no idea where the time has gone. This summer has gone by quick and this year has gone by quick. I've spent the whole time being anxious for my future to get here so I could get started with college. I enjoyed my senior year but I don't think I enjoyed it to the fullest.

I have a tendency to not live in the present. Either I'm daydreaming about something I did before or thinking about what is yet to come, my mind is not usually engaged fully in the here and now. I wish it wasn't so and I keep trying to engage myself in the present but it's tough when there is so much ahead of me to look forward to and so much to do.

Today was a day, however, that I lived in the present. I enjoyed it completely. It was perhaps the last time for a while that I was able to hang out with my best friend. Sure we'll hang out on breaks and stuff but things will never be the same as they have been over the past few years. There was a bit of silence in the drive back to my house and it finally hit me that my time as a kid is over. I have called 3 places home in my whole life and this place has truly been home to me more than the others. I've never been one to get emotional over stuff like this but I know that I am in for a complete change and it's here now. I am prepared to take it on but I know that when I move in on Aug. 12 my life will profoundly change. It's not just a scenery change like some other colleges are, this is a complete lifestyle change. I'm not gonna lie I am a little scared.

Now, don't get me wrong I'm super excited and extremely happy with the decision that I made to go to Valley Forge and the Naval Academy, and I'm extremely excited to get the next chapter in my life going but saying goodbye to my childhood is kind of... sad. For 18 years I've lived with my family and for 6 weeks I won't be able to speak to them. I will change. I will grow up and I'm ready to but for right now I want to keep focusing on today, as hard as that is for me to do, because these are the last days of my childhood and I need to enjoy them and I will!